Elaine Durham is finding it too difficult to live without her husband of 43 years, Marc.
"Some days I wake up and put my hand on his side of the bed and the first thing that comes to my mind is, 'I don't want to do this anymore,'"she said about her late husband.
Durham had just retired a week earlier as head of security for BAE Systems and was on his way to see a movie when he was killed.
The driver of the BMW that killed Durham had plowed into a line of cars, injuring five others including a nine year old boy.
Prosecutors said the driver, Anthony Guarino, 57, had a blood alcohol level nearly twice the legal limit.
During trial, his defense attorney said it was actually sleep apnea that caused Guarino to fall asleep at the wheel, not alcohol.
"I may not be the smartest person or a doctor, but I know when you've consumed nine to 11 drinks, it's called passing out,"said the victim's daughter Melissa Durham.
On Thursday, a San Diego jury convicted Guarino on several counts including gross vehicular manslaughter while intoxicated. He could get up to 13 years in state prison when sentenced on March 11.
"You can call it manslaughter or whatever you want to call it, but it's still comes back to the same thing, it's murder,"said Elaine Durham.
Guarino showed no emotion when the verdict was read. Guarino faces 13 years in prison. He'll be sentenced March 11.