Funnyman Darrell Hammond's backstage struggles were anything but a laugh, the comedian reveals in his new book "God, If You're Not Up There, I'm F****d."
Hammond says that a traumatic childhood led him to drink heavily, which then led to imbibing harder and harder substances before eventually smoking crack during his 14th season as a "Saturday Night Live" cast member.
“I kept a pint of Remy in my desk at work,” Hammond says in the book. “The drinking calmed my nerves and quieted the disturbing images that sprang into my head. When drinking didn’t work, I cut myself.”
Hammond goes on to say that once, following a drinking binge, police took him to the NBC infirmary in a straitjacket, and that the actor was unable to identify his wife.
The comedian, who famously parodied Bill Clinton during his SNL years, says that for a while his cocaine use was relatively controlled.
“I had to be creative about how I did it without other people catching on or letting it interfere with the work. At least too much," he says.
Hammond, who currently works alongside fellow SNL alum Will Ferrell on the web site Funny or Die, rose to prominence for his hilarious impressions of Clinton, Sean Connery, Al Gore, and Chris Matthews.
The book will be available November 8th.