Reality TV dad Jon Gosselin said he is disgusted with his soon-to-be-ex-wife Kate -- claiming she verbally "abused" him during their 10-year marriage and vowing never to return to their lifestyle.
"Our relationship will never be fixed," Gosselin said.
In an interview on ABC's "Good Morning America," the octodad said the stress of raising eight kids while in the searing media spotlight weighed heavily on the young couple.
"I got married at 22. I had twins at 23. I had sextuplets at 27. Bye-bye twenties," Gosselin, 32, said. "And then raising all those kids until you're 30 and, you know, you don't even think about what's going on around you. You just do what you got to do to survive."
Gosselin said the rift has grown so significant between he and Kate that the two must film their TLC reality show "Jon & Kate Plus 8" separately.
"I can't sit on the sofa with that woman. I can't sit on someone right now that I despise," he said. "I despise [her] because she's not speaking from the heart."
Jon blamed Kate for their crumbling marriage because of her refusal to go to counseling and insists she made him cry more than he's cried in his life.
"I don't trust her anymore," he said. "I was abused. ... I was beaten down. ... I'm not going back to that lifestyle," he said.
Jon is now dating 22-year-old Hailey Glassman.